I have quite the urge and want right now to be kneeling on the floor by my (occasional) Master. Not sure why, I just have that. Either that, or being in some other submissive physical position to him...my head in his lap, something. I was horny today thinking about doing things with him, and then I'm on here reading other blogs and stories, and all of those things makes me want a moment like that with him. I can be his equal and be casual and have fun with him, and then there are times when I want him to call me filthy names and play with me and put me in that submissive spot. And right now I'm wanting that.
Many times what I get out of that is the feeling of being little, or small; the feeling that I'm cared for and protected, by someone "higher" than me. I like that. Psychology, Biology, Sociology...whatever...I don't think any type of science will be able to 100% definitively answer why that is, for anyone. Sure there are theories, ideas, statistics to prove or disprove one hypothesis or another...but I think with things like this, sometimes it can't be totally summed up as to why people enjoy submission and dominance. Oh it's fun. Oh it's insightful and intimate and shallow and deep and visual and sensual and many many things...but it isn't the same thing for everyone. Perhaps that is also why it is so interesting to me and I search out these various blogs...because I'm interested always in what people are thinking, and want to see what this dynamic and the things involved with it mean to different people. Well, that's my little rant about that, lol.
What other things are there to share? Well it's fall/heading into winter, and I'll be excited about it once Christmas is here and the snow falls. I adore snow, absolutely love it. When it's dark outside, snow piled up on the ground, I can think of nothing more relaxing than going out and standing in the middle of it, listening to the barely audible pitter patter of it hitting the ground. It's lovely...I could experience that for hours.
And besides my wanting snow desperately right now? I got cut a few days ago ^.^ ohhhh what fun. It started with a back massage, and then with Master telling me to turn my head and close my eyes, and me turning back finally to see alcohol pads and a knife =) Now that's a lovely sight. There were many minor flesh wounds, some that should be gone by next week (if not sooner), but the experience was still fun. And for a brief time someone could make out "SLUT" there if they really looked. That was his idea to do that, totally not mine. Speaking of these cuts, I guess I'll take the time to mention the scar. Yep, there's a scar. It's not very long, maybe an inch and a bit more. It's not in a hugely visible spot right now, but it's there, just a nice line. And you know what? I love it. It wasn't our intention to make one, but I suppose that was just a damn good cut lol and now it's there. I'm willing to bet it'll go away eventually, just not too soon. Every day when I take a shower, I reach and run my hand over the spot, and smile. It makes me think fondly of the day when I got it, and I don't regret that time, or the fact that I have something to show for it. I enjoy it. In a way, it kind of makes me feel more connected to my S.O. even more. He chose to cut me there, we shared that moment together, and now we can both look at that spot and chuckle about it. <3
Well, this seems like a good update. Until next time...Kitten~
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