Cut Slut?

Yes, I think I am ^.^ and that's the new nickname recently given to me by my boyfriend/"occasional top." As the name might indicate, I enjoy cutting/knifeplay. He and I exercise a lot of caution while doing this, and I trust him very much. I can't think of many more people I would trust to hold a blade to me and drag it across my skin. For the most part, it's not very deep cutting at all, sometimes they can be just flesh wounds that are gone in a few days, but we still take it seriously.

Last night I received that nickname, and it was indeed during a little cutting "scene." As I am "occasionally" submissive (and a Kitten), he also is "occasionally" Dominant and a Sir/Master. His title doesn't hold quite the same role as a "true" 24/7 slave's Master, but it works for us in the moment. He has a nice blade that he uses, serrated just about an inch/inch and a half near the base, while the rest is smooth. Last night he was slowly dragging the blade across the back of my thighs, making lines of cuts, and it really was quite the fun time. Of course it hurt, but that is a lot of the enjoyment of it. I trust him to not cut too deeply, to stop if I ask him to, and to help clean up before/after. I'm not sure which is more enjoyable, the actual cutting or the clean up after. During the act, I can feel the blade slide across my skin, each new section of the cut meeting the air and creating a lovely sting. And then after? WELL, lol, he first wipes over the fresh cuts with an alcohol swab, and that definitely stings. I love it, and just take a little breath through the pain. Then he sprays another type of antiseptic on it, and finally goes over it all with an antibiotic ointment.

We both enjoy play like this, but for different reasons. I get sexually excited by the act...the nervousness, the pain, and pleasure, it all rolls into one fun scene for me. He is genuinely interested in doing it, seeing the results, and just finds it fun to do. I think it's a good bonding experience for us, and a definite test of trust. Also, it's intimate. We're close, doing something special between the two of us, and have fun talking about it later. Oh! And, it's a great way for me to feel submissive, and have an outlet for that. Take today for example: I try to keep the cuts clean and treated daily, and this was the first day after receiving them. We were sitting in his room, and I *think* I asked if he'd clean them for me. Eventually I was laying on his bed, on my stomach, pants off. After gentle hints and persuasion from him, I ended up saying "Please Master, will you clean my cuts?"...I love moments like that.

Am I worried about someone finding out and taking it the wrong way? You're damn right I am. I certainly don't expect everyone to understand it, or to try to take the time to comprehend it. We try to cut in places that aren't easily visible (lower/middle back, stomach, back of thighs, etc.), and I also don't openly expose those areas when there are cuts on them. This is the only outlet through which I'm telling people about this hobby of mine, and therefore have tried to make this journal as generic and anonymous as I can, while still being friendly and sharing part of myself with the online public. Of course I didn't email this URL to my friends (OR FAMILY), so only a few for now know about it. However, I do like talking about it. It's a special thing for me, and that's why I made this journal- to feel free to discuss things like that.

Well, I think the boyfriend and I may head out and get into some trouble tonight, lol. If I think anymore to add to this post, I certainly will; this is turning out to be a great experience for me. Oh, before I forget, thank you soooooo much Meg for your wonderful comment on my first post. I absolutely adore your journal, and was so happy that you took the time to read mine. You're so cool!

Take care! <3>